The struggle within EXPANDS…..”She’s more religious, than most women”.
What to Blog? What to blog? I was mulling over writing an article about the wonderful feeling of going to the bathroom after a long long long wait and successfully making it. I actually had this experience today…..But, as I began to write and scrutinize connections between this feeling and dehydration…I realized…. WHACKNESS. Mission ABORT.
Later, in the day… I reflected on a comment one of my friends made. We were having a conversation about me crushing on some guy….I must have made some reference to God and how I couldn’t keep throwing myself at him. He turns to his girlfriend and says “She’s more religious, than most women”. Mind you, until three years ago I was an irregular church attending woman; and to this day, I have problems with conformity. So to think of myself as in the “more religious” crew, is a new idea. Not sure, how I feel about it. Happy about the spiritual growth with Christ, definitely. Undoubtedly happy with the growth I have experienced as a woman, hadn’t thought of my religion as growing.
I have loved Christ since I was a girl but, didn’t attend church regularly until I was a young adult. So, I sorta review religion as church politics. Not such a fan. However, I now love MY church. So, I have learned a great deal more about church politics. My love for Christ is separate of my church politics.
But, really am I more religious than most women? That’s a scary thought. I guess it depends on who you know. It must vary some by region as well. I know somewhere in America there are Americans saving themselves for marriage and they are probably surrounded by other people doing the same thing, they are probably more religious than I am. I also know everyone isn’t just throwing themselves at the next person they find attractive in order to merely gain a liking and perhaps many of them aren’t very religious…. But, then again you just never know. Nothing is ever as it seems, even with me…..
The self perception often doesn’t match the perceptions others have of you. So, now the struggle of understanding oneself deepens as you also try to see the perceptions others have of you….But, why? (A whole different blog, LOL).
But, the spooky thing is…to some I am “that more religious” person and perhaps I need to step it up. Yet, thank God for the increase, cause I am better than I was, with room yet to grow. I only care what others think, because I want to uplift folk and if I am coming across other than uplifting, I want to work on that….. Other than that we should realize that only God can truly do the judging cause other folk are going to talk about you, and that is a FACT (especially in the south, I think).
So as for me, I just keep trucking and reveling in the blessings God has bestowed upon me; like being free to be ME and LOVING it. Yet, still dredging through the everyday muck and mire of life for working class folks. I am not at all resentful of that because most of my problems are caused by lack of money. People who have money, seem to have problems not related to money; and, those in my opinion are often worse than not having enough cash flow.
I love good publicity in the AM
As I thanked God and started my day I tinkered around with what would I blog about today? I’m nu to this, and still finding my groove. The original title woulda been “Wonderful Wednesday”. I prefer to live on cloud 9 but, nothing extraordinary had happened yet and I wasn’t sure people would dig my random acclamations of wonderful -ness. Then the phone rang (Girl interrupted). Someone wanted a private CPR class for two pronto! Amen to that, Lord knows I need the cash (college student, menos dinero!). FaceBook Message: “Welcome to (the place where the guys need the class at. Don’t wanna give out an unearned free plug! just kidding!) Word of mouth advertising is a powerful thing 😉”. ABSOLUTELY LOVE THAT. Being able to teach CPR has been truly awesome! Empowering people to help people when they need it most, which could obviously result in saving lives! Plus, I get to meet cool people? Learn a lot and I got to move to Florida ( my long time dream, that no one thought I would really get to do). I can testify, With God all things ARE possible. I promise. Anyway, maybe this story was funnier in reality? LOL. For your private or scheduled CPR class, feel free to comment below and visit us at http://www.peopleschoicecpr.com or on FaceBook
Battling Burn Out; the Big Bad Bully!
Talk about Big Bad Bullies let’s discuss the “Burnout Beast”. Ever been immersed in a project, whatever that me be….an educational endeavor, a garden, a church ministry, family reunion or even a relationship and the hum drum stagnancy sets in??? The shiny newness wears off and the sensation of wonderment and pride is replaced with proverbial taste of castor oil and black licorice. This is a blog where I need your help. I don’t know how to beat the bully!!! LOL
In the past, it has taken “stick to-it ness” as my Pastor says. You must first have the Lord, I see. I have had some ups and downs that honestly made me want to have a temper tantrum and sometimes I did. “If it had not been for the LORD”, and don’t get me wrong I am not all holier than thou. I can however, testify. I am trying to establish a routine of self nurturing and maintenance to promote a defense against burnout. I am attempting to create and partake of a healthier and more natural diet that will encourage a healthy attitude and feeling, ya know? Assist with the mental aspect of it all. Getting back to praying and reading my Bible….. For me time management has been the biggest issue since being in nursing school. Followed behind then using the time I have in a focused matter. But, the human nature part is a mofo! Your brain and perhaps spirit naturally want a time of rest and decline. A time of “chill” and me, I seem to take it and then wallow in guilt because I had 9,000 things I should be doing! What are your thoughts?
My first day of RN school…. Sorta Kinda
Ok, not exactly my first day of RN school at all. But, it is my first day ever blogging about it! Join me for this splendid stroll through my transformation. So far, it has been amazing. Difficult and very emotional. That was the surprising part to me. The emotional aspect that is totally unrelated to patient suffering but, more linked to the dynamics of the program. My program is smaller and we are clustered into groups of about 20, give or take. The attitudes, mood swings, departures, touch each of our lives in ways that were unforeseeable, much like the dynamics of a professional family. This process is sometimes so painful and awkward. It is hard to put into words. So here, we are, the end of Med Surg 1. Major Exhale…. Unit exam, skills performance exam and final exam. term over!!!!
Mini-break barely time for a refuel and on to the next leg of this trip. Med Surg 2 and Psych Nursing, mental health. Ooh Rah (shout out). The biggest issue is a self vs. self conflict. Remain focused. Way easier said than done. Prayer must be the answer. It’s almost as if I am a strap that has carried the load through many of trips and now the threads are pulling and popping. I am yearning to wrench free of the load and be free! Free of what? You either then get re-attached without the original glamour or you get tossed away,( in the event that you are a handle on let’s say a purse or something)! Perhaps, I better cling to my dream and sanity and try to keep those wild threads in check and on the grindstone…… The madness within that spills out while in RN school.
What is this NusKoOl UrBan NurSe all about?
NusKoOl UrBan NurSe is all about being young in nursing school. However, the angle is from an RN student who is a young black woman. This gumbo is mainly Spirituality from the Christian perspective, wellness and education; seasoned with love, humor and class. The meat of this dish is reality. Not reality with fame or fortune, just the realness of life and in this case, the life of a contemporary nursing student, an eclectic nursing student. So, settle in and I’ll show you where I have been and you can see where I am going….
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